【凝視間隙 Gaze the Gap】
2010 錄像 、行為
Performance art/ video
當時我每天靜心至少4-6小時
在一次的經驗中 撇見萬物彼此共振的和諧的頻率是一個整體的狀態
有一天我想 該是要走出去 ,冒險去照見自己的時候,
而且當時很嚮往過去看書中,過大成就者們在山洞而居、隨遇而安的方式
我開始展開了自己的徒步環島旅行
同時也想 了解把自己放到 陌生的場域 時所觸及自己的恐懼是什麼?
所以當時幫自己的出走下了一個標題【面對自己的恐懼】
當時我有了第一台數位相機
但有一天他的液晶銀幕忽然出現兩個孔洞
我就開始對它產生了另一種想法,我假設它跟人一樣是有意識的
在這個時期的我 ,其實是害怕人的,更害怕跟人有眼神的接觸。
因為那是最直接可以反應自己的各種真實、不安或是切斷等等的狀態,但卻又對人 有很多好奇
所以我開始拿起這台相機,從周遭的人開始,再來到環島旅行期間,遇見的陌生人
透過相機的鏡頭跟去 跟他們面對面3分鐘的時間
我好奇當相機成為 我的另一個視角 。
當他的螢幕眼 就是另一個有意識的生命體,他看見的是什麼?過去被拍攝者經驗相機的鏡頭時。
他會知道背後有人在觀看他,有一個主客之間的關係。而我好奇被當拍攝者 化被動成為主動 去面對到這個非人的生命甚至過去習慣成為客體化為主動與他對視時 會發生什麼反應跟感覺?
而這個螢幕的孔洞 就形成這 之間的 一種『間
隙』。
『間隙』 在西藏講的是中陰,其中一個階段指的是在已逝去的故我,以及將產生的新之間,在投生成為另一個認同之間的狀態,是處於不可知、不確定和轉瞬即逝的中陰過程。
在我們認同 連續的狀態中,被切斷,但還未進入到下一個認同之間的狀態。
離我們最近的就是吸氣跟吐氣之間的那個間隙,也可以稱之為中陰。
所以在這個短3分鐘的過程 人跟機器對視的反應、與呼吸很直接的呈現,同時也透過眼前的孔洞 也讓我們得潛入到中陰、到間隙,對當下無限的可能性,同時也對應到我獨自的這趟旅程,從過去的自我認知與認同中試圖透過旅行去解離,同時也從這個大的集體機制中試圖解離,讓自己在一個不確定與常常會面對到許多未知中的狀態中去觀照自己。
I was meditating for at least four to six hours a day In one experience, the frequency of the harmony of all things resonating with each other is a state of wholeness One day I thought it was time to go out When you venture out to see yourself, And at that time, I yearned to read books in the past, In the past, great achievers lived in caves and went with the flow
I started my own trekking trip around the island And you also want to understand what your fears are when you put yourself in an unfamiliar field? So at that time there was a title for helping his escape "Face Your Fears" I had my first digital camera But one day two holes suddenly appeared on his LCD screen I started to have another idea about it I assume that it is as conscious as a person
During this period, I was actually afraid of people I am even more afraid of making eye contact with people Because that is the most direct reflection of one's own real, uneasy or cut off and so on But there is a lot of curiosity about people So I started picking up Start with the people around me
Strangers I met during my trip around the island And for three minutes I was looking at them through the lens of the camera, and I wondered when the camera became my other perspective When his screen eye is another conscious being, what does he see?
When the subject experienced the lens of the camera in the past, He will know that someone is watching him behind him, that there is a relationship between subject and object. And I wondered what would happen when the photographer turned passive into active, and faced this inhuman life, and even the past habit became an object and turned into an active person, what would happen to the reaction and feeling. And the holes in this screen form a kind of gap between them gaps".
"Gap" in Tibet speaks of bardo, and one of the stages refers to the state between the old self that has passed away and the new that will arise, and between the rebirth of another identity, the process of being unknowable, uncertain and fleeting. In a continuous state of our identity, we are cut off, but we have not yet entered the state between the next identity. The closest thing to us is the gap between inhaling and exhaling, which can also be called the bardo.
Therefore, in this short 3-minute process, the reaction of the human and the machine to look at each other and the breathing are presented directly. At the same time, through the hole in front of our eyes, we have to dive into the bardo and the gap, and at the same time correspond to the infinite possibilities of the moment. To my own journey, I try to dissociate from the past self-cognition and identity through travel, and at the same time try to dissociate from this large collective mechanism, let myself be in an uncertain and often face many unknowns. Observe yourself in the state.